[{"content":"Hello World #This is me, Mehul, welcome to my corner of the web, I plan to make this into a rolling blog site which I can fill with the random ideas and theories which pop in my head. This page is like my intro about what I do, my interests and stuff, I\u0026rsquo;ll try keeping it fun to read, promise 🤞\nEx Product team @ Slick App where we scaled from zero to 2 Million users in a span of 10 months. Launched cool new features for the GenZ college audience of India and created close knit communities. It\u0026rsquo;s always a wonderful feeling when you meet a couple at a bar and they credit your app to be the reason they are together.\nI\u0026rsquo;m guessing you have heard about AI taking over jobs? Well, I had a team of 5 interns who I got annoyed with and automated their work over a weekend hack. In my defense, they were also not liking the work as it was repetitive. Smart kids should have smart things to work on.\nFor my undergrad, I studied CS at Manipal University Jaipur. Where I found my love of AI and making things to improve people\u0026rsquo;s lives. While my time in uni, I started India\u0026rsquo;s first Student Research Society called Phi Phenomenon which started a culture of research in our college which never existed before. Literal freshman used to come upto me and ask for research project advices. This might be a common thing for western people but trust me, no one in india gives a fuck about scientific research and the fact that I was able to make it a better experience for everyone interested was awesomesauce.\nI like doing that, creating things at places which lack them.\nI started a few startup projects of mine during the time which didnt see the light of day mostly due lack of investor interest. I still stand by my ideas and will continue to love them till death. RIP Circles.\nOkay, enough background\nTech #Currently: MacOS with Yabai and Skhd\nLove learning and building things. Converted Arch Linux user of 5 years.\nJavaScript and Microsoft hate GoLang and Python love\nMy GitHub profile would be a more accurate representation of this section ig\n✨ Personality ✨ #Apart from work, you can find me either reading Philosophy (currently Machiavelli 🚩) or watching cool Art stuf (prolly Basquiat) with music in the background (most definitely Radiohead)\nI listen to mostly everything non mainstream, the range goes from Shoegaze to Folk acoustic. I have quite a god complex about my music taste which led me to making this playlist, feel free to use it 😸\nI also followup with internet culture and love curating creative works from the corners of the internet. (used to be a 4chan user untill I got friends)\nIf you\u0026rsquo;re bored or find me cool, let\u0026rsquo;s have a chat. I love to listen to people\u0026rsquo;s views on life and am a sucker for good conversations (also am looking for people to start a podcast with).\n","date":null,"permalink":"/about/","section":"mehul.. probably","summary":"Hello World #This is me, Mehul, welcome to my corner of the web, I plan to make this into a rolling blog site which I can fill with the random ideas and theories which pop in my head.","title":"About"},{"content":"","date":null,"permalink":"/","section":"mehul.. probably","summary":"","title":"mehul.. probably"},{"content":"","date":null,"permalink":"/tags/futurism/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Futurism"},{"content":" the base where all blogs rest ","date":null,"permalink":"/notes/","section":"notes","summary":" the base where all blogs rest ","title":"notes"},{"content":" The age of technology is upon us Techno Feudalism is no longer a theory, it is our future. Big tech has been getting increasingly powerful. While I still believe the government would try it\u0026rsquo;s best to break down the monopolies and give more power to the end consumer, they strictly cannot govern consumer behaviour which for the most part does not care about a Duck Duck Go when they have Google.\nDeep Learning algorithms will govern a lot of what the future has to offer. Earth will be de and reconstructed using efficient data structures which will enable faster and more efficient commerce between worlds.\n\u0026ldquo;Software will eat the world\u0026rdquo;\nThis is already being implemented in places you would not even imagine. Disney has had a long history of park worker rights protests about their pay, work hours etc but Disney has been rather mute about the issues. Let\u0026rsquo;s take a look at Disney Research Studios, it\u0026rsquo;s not about the next generation of animations and making Pixar more life like. Disney Research Studios is an Artificial Intelligence / Robotics lab, specialising in robotics research which is years ahead of anyone in the field. Why is that?\nEnd goal is: A robot theme park.\nIf you think about it, there is not that much of a difference between a robot in a darth vader costume than a real human. With good enough machine learning, we can make them perform any task that a human would do. Want vader to say happy birthday? Just implement multi-modality. Any new show, any cool stunts never thought of before are just an instruction away.\nThe best part? these robot workers do not require to be paid, get sick, or take maternal leaves. And this is not unique to just Disney, this will be replicated across industries, do you really think Ford and GM are gonna wait for some other vehicle manufacturer to build robots and make cars faster and cheaper than them. the age of blue collar jobs is heading towards an end. Machines, a thousand times faster and a million times more efficient than men are here to replace them.\nChina is already leagues ahead of the US in this aspect. Simple example, almost every toll booth in china has a robotic arm which takes the ticket, gives it to the driver and collects the cash. Okay from a logistic perspective it is not an efficient system. This can easily be solved with a dispenser machine for example but look at the amount of data being collected. One billion people live in china, the us has one third of that which means the states will take 3 times the number of years to generate the same quantity of data. And as you know\nData is the new oil\nAs cringe as the statement has gotten in twitter circles, it is true. And southeast asia is the new middle east.\nWith that being established, as of 2024, the \u0026ldquo;iPhone moment\u0026rdquo; of AI has still not come, people credit ChatGPT and OpenAI for being the pioneers in this but looking at the history of the tech industry, the pioneers almost never make it big (example: Xerox invented the personal computer, the mouse and the worlds first GUI a decade before anyone else). Anthropic as of writing of this blog is killing it with the 3.5 Sonnet. Hope the trend continues with the 3.5 Opus teased to be released later this year.\nThere are definitely crazy things which are about to come during the next few years, the only question is, are you with the mythics or the epics.\nHappy star wars day btw. May the 4th be with you!\n","date":null,"permalink":"/notes/age-of-tech/","section":"notes","summary":"The age of technology is upon us Techno Feudalism is no longer a theory, it is our future.","title":"State of tech and what beholds us"},{"content":"","date":null,"permalink":"/tags/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Tags"},{"content":"","date":null,"permalink":"/tags/tech/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Tech"},{"content":" Virtue signalling you wanting to be a better person by reading my blog :D Let\u0026rsquo;s explore consequentialism vs virtue ethics two interesting moral frameworks.\nLet’s start with a thought experiment: Imagine a scenario where a man convinces a kid to jump out of a window. \u0026ldquo;Come on, just one step further, you got this\u0026rdquo; he says. But then, the building suddenly explodes. The kid survives miraculously due to jumping out of the window, and the man is hailed as a hero. But is he? What if the man had no idea the building was going to explode? It was completely unforeseen, he simply coerced a child to jump out of a window. The heroic outcome was pure chance. Yes, I know this scenario is rather unlikely, but let’s follow it through. Given the positive result, how do we determine whether this action by the man was good or bad?\nAllow me to introduce you to these two doctrines.\nVirtue ethics holds that the morality of an action is judged by the intention and the general character of the person performing the action. What was the intended outcome? In this case, the man’s intention was to cause harm or death to a child. This bad intention suggests a generally bad character, which makes the action completely wrong—the character outweighs the outcome.\nOn the other hand, consequentialism is the belief that the morality of an action is judged purely by its outcome. After all, the outcome is what directly affects the world around us, so wouldn’t that be of utmost importance? According to consequentialism, this man’s action is good because it resulted in saving a child from an explosion. But doesn’t that seem a bit fishy? To say the entire action was good despite the bad intention? How do we condemn this man if the result was beneficial?\nWell, there’s more to consequences than just the immediate outcome. Let’s explore this idea with a few more thought experiments, like the trolley problem and the doctor problem, and see how they differ in terms of consequentialism.\nThe classic trolley problem: Is it really a discussion of morality without this philosophical staple? You know the gist: a train is barreling toward five people, and you have the opportunity to switch tracks and hit just one person. Are you more morally responsible if you switch tracks? You don’t know any of them, by the way. In my opinion, once you realize you have the option to switch tracks, you are equally responsible for the death of five or the death of one. But that seems easy: keep more people alive. So let’s switch it up a bit.\nYou are now a doctor with five very sick patients who need organs and on the other hand you have one healthy person. All five of these people could be saved if this one healthy person dies. Same equation, right? One healthy person to save five. While these seem like identical scenarios, here’s why they’re not the same: societal implications. What happens if healthy people can be randomly scooped off the street and have their organs harvested for others? That would lead to what kind of society? One where no one feels safe, as it’s deemed morally okay to kill the healthy for the sick.\nThis brings us back to our initial example: long term consequences. Do we want someone in society going around coercing kids to jump out of windows? Probably not. Consequentialism might condemn this guy as a potential threat to society in the future, despite any short-term heroic acts.\nSpeaking of doctors, think about House, the seemingly immoral doctor who gets the job done. So, would you rather have a doctor with good character and intentions or this guy who gets results? Personally, I’d stick with House; he achieves outcomes through unconventional means, prompting further thought into what dictates our moral judgment: character or results?\n","date":null,"permalink":"/notes/conseqvirtue/","section":"notes","summary":"Virtue signalling you wanting to be a better person by reading my blog :D Let\u0026rsquo;s explore consequentialism vs virtue ethics two interesting moral frameworks.","title":"Consequences vs Virtue"},{"content":"","date":null,"permalink":"/tags/morality/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Morality"},{"content":"","date":null,"permalink":"/tags/philosophy/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Philosophy"},{"content":" as someone who went through a lot of depression, this is a collection of things which helped me. hope it finds you well Depression #Sleepless nights, a lack of joy, an inability to communicate your feelings, prefering isolation and the company of youself than those who love you. Hobbies no longer provide weekend escapism, and your loved ones notice peculiar behaviors. Yet, unlike a visible injury, these symptoms aren\u0026rsquo;t noticeable enough to warrant concern, and you certainly don’t want to bring others down by talking about it as talking about it makes it real.\nOccasionally, you feel elated, overjoyed with life, and almost godlike. However, this mania further alienates and confuses those willing to listen. In moments of twilight self-reflection, you see the entirety of your anguish. Your X-ray vision penetrates the impermanence of everything around you. The insistent misery of being becomes your only sense of comfort and stability. Acknowledging that there is truly nothing to be hopeful for becomes your anchor.\nDavid Foster Wallace compared the situation of those depressed to the scenario of jumping out of a burning building. He wrote:\nMake no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view. The fear of falling remains a constant; the variable here is the other terror—the fire\u0026rsquo;s flames. When the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames.\nSo, what is Depression? #Depression can be characterized in two main ways: as a state or mood versus a full-fledged disorder. The former is an expected component of human experience, while the latter is crippling and formed through genetics and environmental factors. Major depressive disorder brings symptoms such as sadness, tearfulness, hopelessness, anxiety, insomnia, thoughts of death, and a lack of interest in activities once enjoyed. Unlike sadness, depression\u0026rsquo;s symptoms are persistent for more than a few months.\nDepression is complex. Although it is often thought to be caused by chemical imbalances, scientists have found that brain structure and neurology, such as a shrinking hippocampus, also play a role. Certain genetic factors contribute as well. Studies have shown that some individuals carry genes more likely to result in longer sustained despair after trauma compared to others. On a side note, many of these genes are also linked to inflammatory properties, suggesting that depression may have evolved to keep people healthy and less prone to sickness. This explains why preventative measures for depression, exercise, sufficient sleep, and lowering blood sugar levels are also anti-inflammatory.\nDepression is a unique feeling of unfounded dread and despair. Unlike those who are sad and can locate the source of their sadness, a depressive is unable to identify why they feel depressed. They may latch onto universal issues of the human condition, such as the apparent lack of meaning in existence or the tragedy of death, or project their despair onto insurmountable conflicts such as climate change, economic crises, or crime waves. Schopenhauer writes:\nThe vanity of existence is revealed in the whole form existence assumes: in the infiniteness of time and space contrasted with the finiteness of the individual and in both; in the fleeting present as the sole form in which actuality exists; in the contingency and relativity of all things; in continual becoming without being; in continual desire without satisfaction; in the continual frustration of striving of which life consists.\nAddressing the Source #The inability to find a source for the sadness does not mean there is an absence of a personal cause. Instead, there may be an uncovered stressor in one\u0026rsquo;s life, such as a problematic relationship, an unsatisfactory job, or even repressed trauma. Therapists work with patients to confront these incredibly uncomfortable points of contention. Many times it turns out to be rooted in things so old that the person does not even have a clear memory of it but it still is imprinted in their subconsious.\nYou might be wondering, anti depressant medications exist. If depression can be treated pharmaceutically and therapeutically, what\u0026rsquo;s the point of philosophizing over it? After all, we don’t have a philosophy of Lyme disease. It should be treated rather than intellectualized. Yet, depression is different from other physical or mental ailments. At times, it merges with genius, evident in the works of figures like Ludwig Boltzmann, Einstein and basically every good musician. The laser focus provided by depression can benefit philosophical pessimism. Should we dismiss our dark discoveries about the world as soon as our serotonin levels adjust? Depressive realism shows that depressed individuals make more realistic inferences than non-depressed individuals, particularly under fMRI scans.\nExistential Realities and the Absurd #Depression often brings larger truths that add to our despair: impending death, the death of loved ones, the anxiety of absolute freedom, and the inability to truly understand one another. Existential psychotherapy seeks to alleviate concerns with these irresolvable observations. Unlike a chemical imbalance, this therapy is used when depression stems from the unbearable aspects of the human condition. It borrows from humanistic psychology, existentialism, and phenomenology to remind sufferers to live life fully in recognition of their mortality. Albert Camus would approve of this.\nThe Philosophical Perspective #David Foster Wallace uses a classic joke to highlight the obvious, most important realities that are hardest to see or talk about:\nThere are these two young fish swimming along, and they happen to meet an older fish swimming the other way, who nods at them and says, \u0026lsquo;Morning, boys. How\u0026rsquo;s the water?\u0026rsquo; And the two young fish swim on for a bit, and then eventually one of them looks over at the other and goes, \u0026lsquo;What the hell is water?\u0026rsquo;\nWallace is not asserting wisdom but illustrating that the depressive carries a simple and useful awareness of life\u0026rsquo;s absurdity. Albert Camus, in his philosophy of absurdism, argues that there is a fundamental disharmony between man\u0026rsquo;s search for purpose and the universe\u0026rsquo;s inability to provide it. This incongruence creates the Absurd, a core existential dilemma.\nCamus suggests that hope is the real issue. He references Pandora\u0026rsquo;s Box, where hope remains after all the evils are unleashed. Hope torments humans by making them anticipate an ultimate reward, rather than valuing life in the present. Once we recognize the Absurd, we can live a good life. Camus himself lived without hope, indulging in earthly delights, which contributed to his wife’s depression.\nHope #Despite Camus\u0026rsquo; philosophy, hope seems psychologically unavoidable. Recent suggestions allow for a \u0026ldquo;strange hope\u0026rdquo; directed towards present possibilities. French existentialist Gabriel Marcel saw humans as beings striving for significance. Marcel argues that the drive to possess and control for meaning creates a distinction between problem and mystery.\nProblems are technical and solvable; mysteries demand participation and involvement.\nMarcel\u0026rsquo;s hope is a general and absolute one. Instead of hoping for specific outcomes, this hope asserts that everything is not necessarily lost. It is an act of patience, probing and striving towards being while accepting the mysterious character of its work. This is not optimism but a profound assertion that things may not be as dire as they seem.\nEmbrace the Struggle #In moments of despair, even in the depths of hopelessness, we should betray all logic, reason and hope as they will keep you in the same mental loops you have been stuck in. David Hume, when overwhelmed by despair, would retreat to play games with friends, finding amusement that made his speculations seem cold and ridiculous.\nWe must remember to live, laugh, listen to good music, mess up, and create beautiful and ugly art.\nPhilosophy can\u0026rsquo;t solve your depression, but it can offer a perspective.\nAt the foot of the mountain, you will always find your burden again. Yet, you possess a strange hope that rejects the need for gods and instead raises rocks. The struggle itself towards the heights is enough to fill your heart.\nImagine Sisyphus, happy in his defiance, for he has found meaning in the struggle itself.\n","date":null,"permalink":"/notes/depression/","section":"notes","summary":"as someone who went through a lot of depression, this is a collection of things which helped me.","title":"Depression is kil"},{"content":"","date":null,"permalink":"/tags/psychology/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Psychology"},{"content":"","date":null,"permalink":"/tags/politics/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Politics"},{"content":"","date":null,"permalink":"/tags/sociology/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Sociology"},{"content":"In todays world, we are more free than humans have ever been throughout history. We can instantly order whatever food we like, travel anywhere, and pursue any career that our heart desires. Yet, depression and burnout are on their peak levels. Why is this?\nThe after effects of hustle culture led us to a society where we are always striving to do more and be more, to constantly improve ourselves. This emphasis on self-improvement, leaves us at a very weird stage, where we are constantly burntout by trying our hardest to improve but the reality of not seeing things improve at the rate we expect them to makes us feel depressed. We embrace hyperactivity, finding ourselves in a state of compulsive striving. We have little time to connect with both ourselves and the ones close to us. We are all sucked into the myth that we are mere individuals striving to attain purely personal goals. Whereas in reality, there are so many people around us that care about us and have similar goals, not conflicting, similar. The more we continue to define ourselves this way, the more estranged we become from vital aspects of who we are and what we need to be healthy.\nResearchers like Tim Kasser have found that the principles of corporate capitalism—self-interest, a desire for financial success, consumerism, and competition—consistently lead to poor mental health outcomes.\nWhy then do we continue to endorse and embrace such a culture?\nMichel Foucault wrote extensively on the disciplinary society, a form of social organization that tells people what they should do through surveillance and monitoring. In his later years, Foucault wrote about a more specific form of discipline he called the \u0026ldquo;technologies of the self.\u0026rdquo; This concept involves the voluntary actions by which individuals set themselves rules of conduct and seek to transform themselves, making their lives into works of art that meet certain aesthetic criteria. These individuals might follow strict morning routines, for example, practice cold showers, or subscribe to self-improvement podcasts, all to feel a sense of freedom.\nHowever, as Byung-Chul Han argues, a society that normalizes this productisation of the self is more effective in extracting resources from its members than the surveillance methods of disciplinary societies. Instead of a society that tells people what they should do, this new form of control tells people what they can do. This is \u0026ldquo;smart power,\u0026rdquo; which compels people to subject themselves to power relations voluntarily. Rather than inhibiting or repressing, smart power motivates us to self-optimize. We now live in an \u0026ldquo;achievement society\u0026rdquo; where we use apps, ranking systems, and health data to determine if we are optimizing ourselves enough.\nThe auto-exploiting subject carries around its own labor camp, self-illuminating and self-surveilling.\nThis works in a far more efficient way than in a society where the populace is held down by political force or societal rules, this is internal, the ones in power don\u0026rsquo;t have to move a muscle for change to occur.\nAs entrepreneurs, we engage in auto-exploitation willingly and even passionately. The self as a work of art becomes a beautiful but deceptive illusion that the regime maintains to use as a consumer of its resources.\nThis drive to improve ourselves can take over our entire lives. The pressure to achieve, to be more and do more, leads to narcissism. As Steven Ryner writes, \u0026ldquo;Narcissism and sociopathy describe corporate America.\u0026rdquo; In today\u0026rsquo;s society, narcissism and sociopathy are not illnesses but successful strategies. It is effective to be constantly focused on ourselves, monitoring our performance and self-image, never letting our guard down. This constant self-reference develops into a rat race within oneself, eventually leading to burnout or what Han describes as \u0026ldquo;I-tiredness.\u0026rdquo; The ego grows exhausted of itself and eventually wears down. Burnout is treated as an annoyance or a failure to master oneself, seen as a weakness to be immediately addressed. However, burnout and depression are symptoms of this compulsion for achievement and self-exploitation.\nAccording to Aron Berg depression began its ascent when the disciplinary model for behavior broke, and norms invited us to undertake personal initiative by enjoining us to be ourselves. The depressed individual is unable to measure up, tired of having to become himself. This voluntary self-exploitation gives rise to a fractured soul, leading to severe dislocation and a loss of connection within ourselves let alone others.\nThis is not to suggest that self-improvement or striving to be a better person is inherently a bad thing. Such a journey is healthy and often beneficial. However, we should pay close attention to when this process collapses into a hellish cycle of excessive self-reference and exhaustion. For example: caring about your skin and health is good but you have to take a step back and reflect on things if your day involves you applying 20 layers of different manufactured chemicals onto yourself just to look better than someone who probably does not even know you. Such an outcome is likely the result of self-exploitation rather than self-improvement. Alienation is inevitable when our inner sense of value is status-driven.\nErich Fromm\u0026rsquo;s cure to this as he writes in his book \u0026ldquo;Escape from Freedom\u0026rdquo; is simple: spontaneity, seen in both artists and children. Spontaneous activity does not abide by rigid self-optimization and improvement. Instead, it embraces activity for its own sake—art, play, time with friends, and a gradual slowing down.\nSpontaneous activity is the one way in which a person can overcome the terror of aloneness without sacrificing the integrity of themselves. This relies on truly giving attention to the moment through active listening and observing.\nThe gift of listening is inaccessible to the hyperactive ego, which must constantly measure and optimize itself. To listen is to open oneself up to the world.\nOur world has made us increasingly focused on ourselves as a project, making us rigid and incapable of spontaneity. It is only in moments of extreme focus, where we are doing things for their own sake, that we can escape the burnout society. Call it a flow state, spontaneity, or resonance—we find ourselves alive only when we risk destabilizing our journey towards self-perfection.\nBertrand Russell gives us the most succinct path forward in combating self-absorption: \u0026ldquo;The secret of happiness is this: let your interests be as wide as possible, and let your reactions to the things and persons that interest you be friendly rather than hostile.\u0026rdquo;\n","date":null,"permalink":"/notes/freedom/","section":"notes","summary":"In todays world, we are more free than humans have ever been throughout history.","title":"The Paradox of Freedom in Modern Society"},{"content":"","date":null,"permalink":"/tags/cognition/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Cognition"},{"content":"Purple [PUR] + [PUL] #The color worn by Roman magistrates. A color most often associated with royalty and richness of life. Originally obtained from sea snail piss for use in dyeing fabrics.\nBut at its core, what is it? well, a physicist would say it\u0026rsquo;s light with a wavelength between 380 to 450 nanometers. and he would most certainly be right. But there\u0026rsquo;s a difference here.\nBear with me for a second and close your eyes, imagine you are in a room where there are bright purple lights. What\u0026rsquo;s the kind of music you hear? Personally, I hear fast-paced electronic, similar to what someone at a Berlin rave would experience. But why did that happen, why did you think of a specific type of music which does not correlate with the color purple or the physical description of it at all?\nWhat processes went on in your brain which translated 🟪 into 🎧. How did the color purple get transmitted via electrical signals in your brain and suddenly turn into music?\nLet me give you another example, imagine you\u0026rsquo;re at a store buying chocolates. You flip to the back and find the list of all the ingredients and the different elements present in it, you can read through them a million times but that would never tell you how the feeling of eating it would be. You can only find that out once you actually eat it. and what happens then? well, your taste buds catch onto the sensations and send them over to your olfactory cortex and that information somehow turns into the taste of chocolate.\nAnd this is the main rub, we don\u0026rsquo;t know yet how sugar+cocoa+milk solids turn in your brain into the taste of chocolate. this is called the hard problem of consciousness and it is the greatest mystery in history.\nQualia [kwa] + [lia] #Imagine you are shopping with your girlfriend for a purple dress, say you find a nice one and show it to her. and she goes like \u0026ldquo;It\u0026rsquo;s not purple enough\u0026rdquo;.\nWHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN??\nThis my friend is qualia, the purpleness of purple, the sweetness of chocolate, the disgusting smell of piss after a heavy night of drinking. It\u0026rsquo;s the experience of sensation, the feeling of feeling something.\nDefinition-wise, qualia cannot be fully conveyed verbally. It is something which is felt. If you have never been in love, no matter how many books you read about it, you will never know what it truly is like. You will never have the qualia. Descriptions and Experiences live in totally different worlds.\nIn reality, of course, there is no such thing as the purpleness of purple, the sweetness of chocolate or real love. It\u0026rsquo;s all about how your brain interprets things. Ignorance is bliss\nIf we were to experience reality objectively, all we would see are wavelengths of light and chemical formulas of food.\nThere is no purple. It\u0026rsquo;s just one of the things our brain creates to make the living experience a little better (don\u0026rsquo;t forget to give a 5⭐️ on Airbnb).\nAnd that is the wild part, okay, so physically our brain is just meat with electricity, it\u0026rsquo;s a biological computer so how the fuck is it able to create such exquisite experiences out of simple things like chocolate.\nThis is the hard problem of consciousness.\nNow there are easy problems of consciousness too. like:\nhow can our brain quickly change focus from one thing to another? how can you control some of your behaviours but not others? the difference between waking and sleeping how does memory work? these are still not figured out but they seem close, all of them seem vulnerable to explanations through computational or neural mechanisms, but with enough cocain.. coffee scientists can definitely figure it out someday.\nBut the really hard problem of consciousness is the problem of experience, the problem of Qualia. When we think and perceive, there is a large amount of information being processed by our brains, obviously history and biases tend to have an effect on the experiences (which kinda sounds like an ML problem to me).\nWhy are the easy problems easy, and why is the hard problem hard? Because of the hard problems, we do not have the beginning of the beginning of a plausible solution yet. You can explain all the chemical processes in the brain, what exactly which part of it does but still you would have no idea why it makes you feel like puking every time someone lets out a nasty fart right beside you. It\u0026rsquo;s.. just a smell, right?\nSo our brain is basically a computer, it processes images and audio, outputs sounds via voice, it can do math(most of us anyway) but what separates us from the silicon life form? That\u0026rsquo;s right, it\u0026rsquo;s the experience. you can show your computer hours upon hours of Pokemon furry porn but it suddenly would not start getting aroused by it by the mere-exposure effect, there is no feeling to the processing.\nThe duality of subjective and objective reality must be broken, nothing is binary, it\u0026rsquo;s all a ✨ spectrum ✨. Break the walls down.\nDo you know what I love about this consciousness stuff? It\u0026rsquo;s the fact that it\u0026rsquo;s not some random thing being solved, it doesn\u0026rsquo;t affect any company\u0026rsquo;s annual turnover, and it\u0026rsquo;s not going to stop any wars. ITS ME, I am the mystery, you the reader, the mystery is inside you. and since the thing is so close, it barely gets mentioned, but it begs you to think. How is experience possible, how am I possible, how is anything around me real? ","date":null,"permalink":"/notes/purple/","section":"notes","summary":"Purple [PUR] + [PUL] #The color worn by Roman magistrates.","title":"Purple and the conscious experience"},{"content":"","date":null,"permalink":"/tags/qualia/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Qualia"},{"content":" fuck big tech first of all, if you’re not an anarchist, idk what to say to you, go do a BuzzFeed quiz or smth. but you’re still welcome to read and have fun :)\nnow for the anarchists, you need to figure out one essential thing. what you wanna work in. I am not helping with that so you’re on your own but whatever domain you pick, you should have a unique combination of some skills there.\n“Don't just be another cog in the system, be a square peg in round holes.” ~Gandhi (probably) you have to be interdisciplinary, eg. a marketing+analytics person, a developer who can also do finances, an AI researcher who can talk to women, anything.\nthis will ensure that your employer cannot fire you because of your unique skillset. with this set, you can start spreading your influence.\nnow as an anarchist, you want chaos, not order, so you do not have to care about being nice to your coworkers (doesn’t mean you gotta be rude but that part is totally up to you) and as they can\u0026rsquo;t fire you, you will not be having any major problems with the HR.\nnext up you have to eliminate all the religious people near you, they are wasteful and add complexity to your plans. be sure to be rude to them but still in a passive way so that they never talk to you but also can\u0026rsquo;t bad mouth you to anyone as technically you never did anything.\nnext up are the managers, just outsmart them, if you can\u0026rsquo;t do that, are you even good for this?\nmake sure to have some coworkers who are chill and like you. They are crucial to have by your side. Don\u0026rsquo;t become friends with them but let them believe you are friends, this will play to your advantage at later stages.\nnow that all of these factors are set in, you can start acting on your plan.\nstart suggesting meaningful changes in the main product of the company, this will show them that you are interested in what they’re building and will make them give you more importance/responsibilities\ndoing this, steadily climb up the hierarchy until one day you’re sitting with the CEO and having a sketchy discussion.\nnow here, you have two choices, let’s go through both:\nyou can fake-agree with them (cos the only thing you really believe in is the perpetration of chaos in the world). this will give you short-term gains, and if he turns out to be wrong in the future, you were supporting them at one point so they will respect the comradeship (LAME 👎)\nthe other option is to go against him and have a dick-measuring competition to see who stands higher. (FUN 🤪)\nnow you are in a position to rat them out to the board and take over. If you don\u0026rsquo;t have evidence, forge it. this should be your goal, to be in talks with the board and oust the present ruler of the empire called your workplace\nnow that you have power over the company and what it does, you have to make sure not to forget your roots.\nthis is important, many people lose the game at this point.\nnow, due to the CEO being ousted, it will cause trouble with stockholders, loyal employees, etc.\nBUT\nYOU are the CEO now, you can just fire anyone who questions you. if they threaten legal action, send a local gang to kidnap their kids/loved ones.\nmeanwhile, wire some company funds into your personal account, it\u0026rsquo;s a little illegal but not a big deal this isn\u0026rsquo;t the most illegal thing you’re gonna do\nslowly, the company will only be left with incompetent people who don\u0026rsquo;t want to do anything. This is perfect.\ncall them all to work one day at an odd time like 12 in the night (for people who work in the day) and don\u0026rsquo;t tell to why, just say it\u0026rsquo;s crucial and they will be fired if they do not show up.\nnow before they show up, make sure to keep the workplace clean, with no litter, and no random pages lying around, while you’re at it, remove all the paper there is in the room, and remove everything apart from chairs, tables, and their computers.\nafter they show up, make them sit at their desks and as soon as they’re seated, leave and lock the doors from the outside. done let them leave\noptional: you can brainwash them by playing anarchist movies on a TV on a loop for the entire time\nnow let this go on for at least 3 days, and keep monitoring with the security cameras if your employees are going insane\nby this time, outside communication would have made your stock prices collapse and the shit PR you’re getting won\u0026rsquo;t let you raise any more money.\nAwesome!\nnow shut down power to the workplace for a few hours then open the gates\nthe permanently damaged, employees will now have trauma and will quit and ruin all the other companies they work at\nnow that your employees are permanently damaged. this is your time to give a speech, explain to them how society is fake, deserves to get cleansed and that pure chaos everywhere is the only solution to it. make them watch Mad Max if it helps.\nnow that they are in your cult and will listen to anything you tell them. ask them to put on a victim mask because they were victims of a very toxic culture. this will help them get hired at other firms.\nafter they get another job, explain to them how you infiltrated the old company and ask them to repeat the cycle.\nremember the money you wired into your account? buy a ranch or a penthouse and watch shit fall down (fight club end scene much?)\ncheers and goodluck :D\n","date":null,"permalink":"/notes/anarchy/","section":"notes","summary":"fuck big tech first of all, if you’re not an anarchist, idk what to say to you, go do a BuzzFeed quiz or smth.","title":"Beginners Guide to Anarchy in the Workplace"},{"content":"","date":null,"permalink":"/tags/workplace/","section":"Tags","summary":"","title":"Workplace"},{"content":"","date":null,"permalink":"/categories/","section":"Categories","summary":"","title":"Categories"},{"content":" meant for purely aesthetic purposes, I do not intend to replace any artists. # home very soon me i am your dagger edgar allan poe love is love for you \u0026lt;3 is that david bowie? 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